back to school

school starts tomorrow. to be honest, i'm kinda nervous. i have no idea what to expect. i don't even know how long class is tomorrow - i haven't received a schedule yet. all i know is that i show up tomorrow morning at 8am.

i feel like i'm a little kid again nervous about the first day of school. tonight i dusted off my backpack. it's seen a lot of use recently, but not for school in a while. it has sand in it from all its trips to the beach. and, it had a few drops of pee on it from that puppy at dog beach that thought it looked like a fire hydrant. and, it has some leaves in it from all the wind and rain last weekend when we took it to december nights at balboa park. at least i showed it a good time during its break ;)

i also made my little bag lunch, complete with my name on the bag. in law school, my name is "ms. junck", so that's the name i write on my bag. that way people KNOW its mine. i guarantee there's no other "junck" at my school, so that "oh, i thought it was mine" crap aint' gonna fly.

i'm also going to go set out my outfit for tomorrow. that's mostly because i badly need to do laundry right now and i don't want to waste the time in the morning finding something clean.

it's been four months since school ended, so i feel a little rusty. and, unfortunately for me, the majority of what's on the bar exam is what is taught during the first year of law school. i feel disadvantaged because my first year was one year longer ago than anyone else taking this test for the first time, due to my stupid medical leave of absence. its bad enough that my leave comes back to haunt me everytime i feel sick, but now it's like a huge cloud over my head. my first year of law school was four years ago, and i don't remember much from it. i feel completely disadvantaged.

i really shouldn't feel too nervous. although i've had a lot of fun over the past four months since school has been out and have been going out quite a bit, i've also been pretty good about studying. two to three times a week i've had study nights. and, i've taught myself constitutional law 2 (a class i never took) by reading books and giving myself tests. it was almost like taking the class. the good news is i passed, although my professor was kind of crazy. just kidding ;)


i had coffee tonight with someone i used to know and was reminded of how things always look different in hindsight. there are things in my life i would have done differently. even looking back tonight, there are so many things i'd like to change about the past year. actually, just one big thing. i can't help but wonder how my life would be different today if i could change that. i hope that when the bar is over, i don't look back and wish i did these next few months differently.

i bet school won't be so bad. but i feel a little like billy madison intimidated by the first day of school. i've been singing the "back to school" song all day long.




well, here goes nothin'.

out.
-L