halfway point

i think i'm about halfway done with my class. in fact, i think the bar is like exactly a month away. being halfway done sounds exciting and all, except that i feel like i've been taking this class for a freaking year. so, i can't believe i'm ONLY halfway done.



we finished relearning all the MBE subjects and had a simulated MBE test on friday. it was good practice, i'm sure, but frustrating. i had been doing very well on the practice questions for homework but didn't do as well as i would have liked on the actual in class test. i've been studying this shit for over a month, and spending LOTS of time studying it. it's really frustrating that i don't have it down as well as i'd like.



now that we're done with the MBE subjects, we still have to learn:

agency/partnership
civ pro
corporations
wills
trusts
remedies
community property
professional responsibility (ethics)



i've finally started to get a little stressed out, too. i was quite impressed that i haven't been stressed at all yet, but its starting to sink in a little. more than anything, i just feel irritable. usually it takes a lot to bother me, but little things annoy me now. like when someone who i know is just trying to be supportive will tell me to go home, take a nap and do something fun. unfortunately, if i had time to do that stuff, i'd already be doing it. you wouldn't have to tell this girl twice! ;)



i really miss having time to do the things i need to, even the boring routine things like cleaning my apartment, doing laundry, getting my car washed. and good god, do i need a freaking haircut!! i needed one about two months ago, so now its pretty bad. that's going to be one of the first things i do after the exam.



and, having a social life and dating is very difficult while studying for the bar. i've been a bad friend and bad lady friend for the past month. but, i don't know what's better - spending less time with friends, or spending more time with them but complaining incessently about the bar and being stressed out and being so tired that i feel like i'm about to pass out. and, going on dates is difficult because i don't have a whole night to devote to a date - we can go out for a little bit then i invite him back to my place to watch me study. hot date, huh?



i'm just so incredibly tired. today i went to class until 1pm, then straight to work, then straight to the library to study. for the past 4 days (yes, including sunday) i had class all day until 5pm. followed of course by many hours of studying. i'm so tired i feel like i'm in some dreamlike state when i'm not even sure what's real anymore. i study for like 12 hours a day, and i feel like i can't remember any of it.

being a lawyer better be awesome.



out.

- L